Sermons from St. Francis

March 30, 2008

Text: John 20:19-31

Pr. Robert Goldstein

 

“Beyond Fear”

 

How patient Jesus is with the first disciples!

 

They are all locked up inside a house, but it is not only the house that is locked up. They are locked up inside themselves –locked up with fear. And, frankly, I would be too. For they have become identified as a threat to the powerful.

 

Now they were revolutionaries, followers of this Jesus with his revolutionary vision of proposing a new way of human existence: no longer the grubbing insecurity of greed, but a deeper human community. With their leader gone, the disciples ought to feel afraid. If the powerful killed Jesus, they will surely kill them! No wonder they are locked up in their hearts and in that house!

 

That’s why Jesus appears and greets them with calming words, “Peace be with you.” Jesus shows great patience and understanding of human weaknesses such as fear, a powerful emotion that distorts how we see the world and paralyzes us from ever changing it.

 

When I was at Yale in 1969, Yale became an antiwar battleground on New Haven Green. This giant open park, surrounded on one side by Yale College, on another by the Connecticut Supreme Court, and with the three churches down its center, was filled with thousands of protesters. We Divinity School students were charged to buffer the students from the troops –who weren’t much older than the students themselves –but had the weapons of death.

 

It became very tense indeed. In 1784 the founding Puritans had designed New Haven Green to hold the 144,000 faithful whom God would take at Christ’s Second Coming. Well an Armageddon was approaching instead: resentful high school soldiers meet the privileged college students.

 

There was a flashpoint. Rioting broke out and the National Guard went into action. I was trained to gather as many youth as I could and take them to the relative safety of the basement of one of the churches on the Green.

 

Choking on teargas, I herded a flock to the closest church basement, trying to answer their anxious ejaculations with calm assurances. Then one cried out, “The Supreme Court is on fire! The Supreme Court is on fire!” which means roughly, “The sky is falling! The sky is falling!” Things were beginning to really fall apart.

 

I took a hard look at the Supreme Court building far across the Green. Nothing is happening there at all! But a melee of students, cops, the National Guard, and all manner of the politically disturbed were running hither and yon across the Green through smoke and struggle. Nothing was happening to the Court building. But the young man cried out again, “The court is on fire!”

 

I grabbed and held him and said, “It’s OK. We are safe here,” which translated is, “Peace be with you.” And we were –relatively to the mayhem all around us.

 

Fear, real living fear, distorts our perceptions both of the world and of our problems and then locks us up. Fear leads those first disciples to lock up the house. But once again, Jesus patiently comes a second time and frees them with words of peace and patience: “Peace be with you.”

 

But there is deeper level to the disciples’ behavior. Since Jesus hasn’t been stopped by death, then his vision is not dead either. But, oh my God! –Jesus wants us to put it into practice! We are Jesus’ hands and feet and lips! But where do we start? How do we start? It’s so impossible a task!

 

The impulse is now to another level of fear –panic! Let’s run away from this! There’s nowhere to run, so let’s lock up the house again! Let’s do anything. But let’s stay in denial because the vision is so great and we are so ill-equipped.

 

And that is where to locate brother Thomas’ famous doubts –his clever device to hold off what’s gloriously scary. “Unless I see the mark of the nails in Jesus’ hands, and put my finger in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I will not believe.” Clever form of denial, don’t you agree? It’ll never happen so I am scot free.

 

But Jesus loves him. Christ appears in that locked up house again with those locked up disciples. Why? Because he has great confidence in them –that’s why he chose them! And once again he greets their subtler forms of fear ever so patiently with, “Peace be with you!” --responding then to Thomas’ doubts on Thomas’ terms. Touch my wounds! And once again they are freed from the traps in which they have ensnared themselves. Freed to breathe. Freed to live. Freed to lead.

 

 

Jesus has chosen you too. OK, we may not be Peter, Paul or John, but Jesus has chosen us because he loves us and is so patient with us. For Jesus knows that patience and grace bring out the best in people, eventually. It really does.

 

We are faced with a bit of lockdown at our church too. We are addressing the extremely difficult issue of the homeless in this post-Reagan society of selfishness and greed. While I don’t have any ready solutions to this complex problem, I meet homeless persons not things or “them.” Let us bring the patience of Christ, the peace of Christ, to our meeting today as well as to our candor and openness to one another.

 

We must not become locked up in our hearts with fear and with the understandable frustrations related to the homeless that feed on our fear. We are to be Christ’s face in this huge challenge and to bring Christ’s peace into the thorny issues. May peace be with us!

 

St. Francis has been faced with lockups of fear before. As the AIDS epidemic thrashed the Castro community, St. Francis chose Christ over fear. And as homosexuality itself became more understood through the modern sciences, we have not followed the fearful path of the wider Lutheran church. God’s Spirit gave us the courage over our fears to speak prophetic words.

 

The ELCA, that wider Lutheran Church, is now locked in fear of splitting over the new wine of sexual minority rights. The newest sexuality statement of March 13th reveals that the wider church is not moving forward at all –in fact the majority that produced that report have actually walked backwards to a 1950’s theology. Yes, the ELCA is locked up more than ever in the house of fear.

 

You have shown the way outside that house of fear and its paralysis. Your extraordinary vision has brought the peace of Christ and the courage of Christ to others encouraging them to join in the struggle for justice. It is far from over and like the first disciples we are so small against so great odds. But let faith in God’s justice, not fear, take hold of us, and then the equation changes. May the peace of Christ keep us free from fear, free from panic and from ourselves. Peace be unto you too. Amen

 

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